Celebrating Brooks + Hudson
January 21, 2015 is a day etched in my mind forever. On this particular January day, we learned we were not just expecting one baby...but THREE. I didn't know how to react. We had a 10-month old at home at the time and I wasn't sure how we would manage four kids all under the age of two. So I cried. For a week. Had I known then what I know now - I would have relished every.single.moment....every single moment that I had all three babies growing and developing into the little miracles they were.
As the shock wore off and the excitement settled in, we began preparing for their arrival. Before long, we found out we were expecting two identical boys and a girl. We were so excited. As with most multiple pregnancies, we were high risk and with identical boys it took those risks to a whole new level. We were monitored closely and told about all the things that could go wrong. Despite the risks, we held on to our faith and trusted our doctor. And yet, the unimaginable happened.
After seemingly smooth sailing for 24 weeks, we learned our baby boy "b" (Brooks) had passed away from complications associated with Twin to Twin Transfusion Syndrome. We were also told that Brooks' passing had caused a lot of stress on baby boy "a" (Hudson). The medical team explained that Hudson had a severe brain hemorrhage and the extent of the hemorrhage would not be known until birth. We were heartbroken and we were worried.
Our doctors told us there was nothing we could do but pray and try to stay pregnant as long as possible. We did just that or, at least we tried. We again, prayed and held on to our faith.
At 30 weeks gestation,10 weeks early, I went into labor and delivered Hudson Howard (3.5 pounds) and Avery Elaine (3 pounds). Not surprisingly, they were admitted immediately into the NICU. Avery was little but, other than being premature, she had no additional health issues. Unfortunately, her brother was not healthy. We learned that Hudson's brain hemorrhage was very severe, his kidneys were not fully developed and not functioning properly. We were told he was very sick and would not live long.
On July 10, 2015, after 11 days, we removed his life support and enjoyed time alone with him. No machines. No tubes. Just us.
We snuggled. He met his big sister, Olivia. We sang songs, read books and I told him about all the fun things he would get to do in heaven with his brother.
After seven short hours, he died peacefully in my arms. A piece of me will forever be missing. My heart forever broken.
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Our NFTS Angels in the Outfield will take place on Sunday, August 11th, 1:08 (Gates open at 11:38am)
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Location: Principal Park, 1 Line Drive, Des Moines, IA 50309 (NFTS will be located in the Mezzanine Area. Please use Gate B.)
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